The third beta came in at 694 today. Still growing, dammit, with no miracle bursts.
I spoke with Dr. Nice, who reassured me that even if it is ectopic, ectopics tend not to burst till HCG levels hit 4,000 or so. Not that it’s impossible for them to burst at lower levels, just not usual. He’s going to take a look on the high-end ultrasound machine, and he did say he’d prescribe the dreaded methotrexate if he sees a sign of anything outside the uterus. At this stage, it would be way too small for surgery. He wouldn’t be able to find it. He didn’t mention what he would do if he sees nothing at all or something of inappropriate size in the uterus
I asked what would happen if I have the methotrexate shot and there is a problem over the weekend, and he told me that the doctor on call (him on Sunday, head of the practice on Saturday) would meet me at the hospital, not leave me in the hands of the notoriously bad local ER.
I would put money on him not seeing anything with such a low beta. As much as I fear the methotrexate, I may ask for it even if he sees nothing or something in the uterus. There is no chance that this can turn into a baby with any chance of making it, and I can’t see any point in letting it drag on and grow bigger and more difficult to remove when it eventually dies/stops growing. Add to that the fact that I am wildly dizzy– too dizzy to drive– and I’m just ready for this to be over.
Thanks for being here with me. I wish I’d had your support the first time around.
I just found your site today via Paper Pregnant. I followed her site for months and finally she has a happy ending, although her heartbreak from her losses will live with her forever. On another note now that her struggle to become a parent has come to a positive end- I’m going to stay here and wait for yours.
Hang in there honey. Be strong. Your cyberspace friends are the soft net to catch you when you can no longer hold yourself up.
Oh, sugar. I’m so sorry.
Be gentle with yourself, okay?
Miscarriages suck whether public or private, but I do understand appreciating having someone to hold your hand. And we’ll do that.
Holding your hand as long as you’d like…
thinking of you… all day
It sounds like the methotrexate would make you feel better. I can only imagine how scary it is. take care.
xoxo.
Gah. I’m here with you too. Hoping for a speedy resolution. Hang in there.
I still say it’s a chromosomally abnormal pregnancy in the uterus. (((hugs)))
thinking of you …
Also thinking of you. You are the only person to know what is right for you here, so don’t feel bad about wanting or not wanting the meth. (Hehe, that sounded like I’m accusing you of being a druggie. Not erasing it. Hopefully it’ll provide a much needed giggle today.)
Wishing you speedy resolution.
I hope you feel better soon and are on your way to happier times. So sorry.