No news is… no news
February 7, 2008(After a 90 minute wait at Grand Central Station in Dr. Nice’s waiting room, exam room, and ultrasound room) he and the ultrasound tech couldn’t see a damn thing. Which is exactly why I am glad I self-prescribed yesterday’s beta, because we needed another point of data.
Dr. Nice’s hypothesis: Since my uterus lining is very thin, but my numbers are still going up, he thinks that it’s an ectopic, and the bleeding last week was my uterus sloughing off its lining, but not the embryo. I think that sounds logical.
My options were:
1. Do the methotrexate today
2. Do more bloodwork tomorrow morning, and if it’s still going up, do the meth tomorrow
3. Wait and see and monitor (basically hope this will resolve on its own)
We are going with the in-between option 2, which just feels like a stay of execution to me because I will fall out of my chair if I get a lower beta tomorrow. After this, they follow up with blood work on days 4 (Tuesday) and 7 (Friday). If the beta goes down, I can expect to finally miscarry in a couple of weeks. If it goes up, I will shoot myself.
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What I need from you guys now is this: Accounts of experience with the meth that do not include the words “I thought I was going to die,” “I’ve never felt so horrible in all my life,” or similar. Truly, if you don’t have anything reassuring to say, don’t say anything at all. Dr. Nice claims those adverse reactions are very rare, and as much as I love and trust him, and even though it’s his birthday, I don’t believe him.
Oh goodness. I’m sorry things are still in such limbo. I didn’t do the meth, so I hope someone has a nice warm fuzzy story for you about it. Or even better, I hope the number goes down tomorrow.
Regardless, I say ask for pain pills. It can’t hurt to have them on hand.
My sister did meth but still had to have a d&c because it was too late in the pregnancy, apparently. But she gave it a shot, and didn’t have any adverse issues with it. Will it help if I say you won’t either?
No experience with the meth, but I just wanted to say I’ve been thinking about you recently and hoping for an easy resolution for you.
Ugh the suck-age of waiting! I am so sorry! I have not used the Meth but I DO know several (2) that have and just called them for details and they both said that while they hadn’t had previous miscarrages to compare, they did not say horrible things about it.
I hope you get a better idea on which way to go after tomorrows beta. Again… very sorry.
A friend of mine had to take methotrexate. I would say at the time the physical toll was far less than the emotional toll. I remember her telling me it was like a really bad period. If you have any specific questions, I’m happy to call her and ask. She is the type to want to help. I’m thinking of you.
Two friends of mine have had methotrexate and neither of them had adverse reactions. One of them got on a plane to France the next day.
Thinking of you.
I have one friend (that I mentioned previously) that took two doses AFTER a D & C. (long, long story) She probably wouldn’t have even known that she was given the shots if her doctor hadn’t told her, if that tells you anything about it.
The other two friends I know that had it had a lot of cramping, etc. However, they were much farther along and had pregnancies located in the uterus. That leads me to think the cramping was from expelling the tissue, etc. while if yours is located in the tube, maybe it would reabsorb the majority of it before it made it to your uterus and then the cramping would be minimal.
My thoughts are with you . . .
good luck Cat
Though I cannot attest to this (nor do I have time to research it), common sense tells me that with such a low beta as yours, the embryo isn’t big enough to cause that much pain regardless of where it’s located.
Hang in there my friend.
Unfortunately I can offer no words of wisdom, or assvice either for that matter - but just wanted to let you know that you’re in my thoughts.
Hope this is resolved soon.
I had read Julie’s (alittlepregnant) description of the methotrexate before I had my own and it was nothing like it. The RE I went to after my bad D&C said it’s possible to have one in the yoot and one in the toob, so I don’t know if there was anything in my tube. I doubt it. But it gave me diarrhea that was nothing compared to a bad stomach virus. It really wasn’t that bad at all. I think I had diarrhea like 3 times. ((hugs))
Also, when I said sac, before, I meant the black circle in which they see the fetal pole and whatever the balloon thing is called. The fluid cavity. It was getting bigger. The “flicker” one of the totally incompetent techs said she saw was questionable, and I will never know.
I’m so sorry that you’re going through all of this. The limbo part is what would put me over the edge. You’re handling it much better than I would have. I have no experience with the meth shot — I just hope that if that’s the route you end up going that you don’t have any adverse reax to it.
I’ve got no experiences to share, but I hope you don’t have to do it, and if you do that it is not extreme and awful.